Friday, December 14, 2007

on that day we stopped a little...

the last two weeks have been busy. went to the beach, got trapped there by inclement weather, lost a good friend i haven't seen in at least 6 years, lied about having written a long blog post, and realized that my job is going to be there every day whether or not I kill myself doing it.
Last night saw me in a bar not drinking to the memory of someone I had let go of too well, and got re-acquainted with others I hadn't remembered to let go of... people who I should have been a friend to and wasn't. Nothing like a loss to remind you that you've neglected the people in your life.

So this morning I showed up for work 20 minutes early, rather than 50, I planned to take a full lunch but there was a schedule conflict, a training I had forgotten about.. I'm going to go to my job and do it the best I can, and not beat myself up trying to be the hardest worker. I made myself sick once before, I think because I had been constantly stressed. I'm learning to let go of the stress, trying to keep the productivity. Becoming a better employee is something that will happen because I love to learn.

Christmas is coming too soon. My wife does such a fine job of shopping for all the people in our lives, I really should harness this somehow, get her to shop for her own gift (just kidding, dear). We're having two christmases, one with my family, one with hers.. Plenty of wrapping, plenty of preparation. How do I find time to write this entry? Procrastination and guilt. The great thing is that procrastinating on one project for something I feel guilty about generates plenty of guilt to drive me on the thing I neglected.

Wish you were here..

1 comment:

The Mushroom said...

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fishbowl... year after year.

Sorry to hear about the loss. (I say "the" rather than "your" because it was a part of you and others that was lost.) No matter who or how long ago a person was, that part one might not have known existed comes to the fore when the bad news is broadcast. We're not good at evaluating when we don't have a sudden need to.

Have yourself a merry little Christmas.